LAPD MAN.

Well, got told that i couldn't go out today as i need to pack and all that, i haven't even touched my case yet and i really can't be bothered...thing is i don't want to go now because last night the delightful news reporter said...'If you're going to spain be prepared, blah blah blah, bombs, blah blah, dead...blah' i can't remember much apart from stuff and people being bombed O.o i don't want to die!

Anyway, woke up and the grasshopper is still on my ceiling, i'm not scared, i just hate the thought of it falling off onto my face and euh.

Got a letter through the door from the police station today about my 'anti-social behaviour' I was a bit peed off because in the letter they made me sound like a raging alcoholic and they've even sent a leaflet with classes that me and my mum can go to, to help me get out of this awful drinking cycle i'm apparently in ;) harrr.

Nah i don't drink, all i had was a capful and now apparently i'm a reb.nooo. im like the least rebellious person alive.

Sex on the brain.

Today has been a very 'sexual' day i guess (: watched zack and miri make a porno, was so good, zack and miri did their part in the porno, but THEY HAD REAL SEX, the 'fucking' turned into 'love making' and then they lived happily ever after (: was sweet, Then just talked about it and how beccy was blates horny...;) Tonight i watched 'sex my big decision' with my mum, got the sex talk...mmm.

'i don't care when you have sex, it's going to happen etc.etc.'

I LIED, and told her that i was waiting until marriage- harhar. Only so i wouldn't get the whole lecture on how underage is not bad, but not as good as being legal, And so she'd trust me to be her little girl, all innocent- and not ask me questions, which yeah we have an open relationship but i don't think she'd honestly approve because if you're under 16 YOU SHOULDN'T HAVE IMPULSES-DURRR.

But yeah, why is everyone obsessed with virginity? or 'fucking' because it's not going to be like you imagine, all rough and 'UH UH AHHH' nah. You'll be lucky if you last 5 minutes (: so please men with dicks as penis' think of the women! which yeah is a big generalisation but seems as if 9/10 guys i know, are determined to fuck anything to boost their rep?

EAT.

WELL, what can i say, today has been thrilling. not. I've done jack all apart from tidy up! I feel so ill at the moment, constant headaches and now i can't eat like i used to...stupid holidays. mmm, i think what i need is an early night and some food inside me. :) I wrote a to-do list/shopping list and so :) tomorrow i'mgoing round banksy's but my mums DETERMINED to take me down to red dragon to get my smiley taken out...at first that was what i wanted but now i really can't be bothered, i'll do it in my own time! and it cost toomuch. ANOTHER thing that's annoying me is ugly betty...AH kimmy ! i just want to rip her eyesout, why do i get so involved xD

Happy campers.

Ah hello, HOLIDAY SOON.
(: ummm yes,

deeper than the ocean

Mai's party lastnight! VERY GOOD, we saw the proposal and i admit i cried! but on the behalf of every girl, you're bound to cry at romantic things in movies because you think 'if only' probably because guys are WHAAY to macho to do anything like that (; well it seems that way.

Chatted for hours about sex, guys, phases and all the typical 'gal stuff' and had some amazing deep conversations which was awesome :) Had food food food, watched saw and then slept like babies! amazing times :)

Today i'm having a lazy day and i'll tidy up my room, exactly one week until i go Abroad i'm well excited, BUG AND SEAL! and snorkelling! ah, nothing beats swimming in the ocean. :) well happeh!

bluebkahbdhbd

Why hello, haven't written in donks, so what's happened?

well, not much really broke up from school, just that really...i haven't really been out as of yet, and it's been like 3 days! well ive seen people but...haven't really gone far!

Today i went to brighton to get a piercing. BUT nobody would do the one i wanted...so then we went to worthing and tried our luck there, finally came across a place called flux and got my smiley pierced, when i got in there i was shitting my pants, i've never seen one of these piercings in life other than in photos so it was the thought of it not being done much that scared me! For me personally it hurt like hell, because it went through so slowly and when she was screwing the ball on ahhhh! But probably the best piercers i've seen (: they also have a little shop where you can buy stuff and yeah..

Got a new school bag :) apart from it's fred perry...first designer brand i've had but i'll customise it :) ummm. had some chilli ribs? i can't even remember :) but it was nice seeing my daddios, in the car we were talking about hash cakes and other weird and wonderful drugs, stupid stoner!

Guess what.

WE'RE ALL GOING TO DIE OF SWINE FLU, SO WHY DONT'CHA JUST COUGH ALL OVER EACH OTHER, LIKE SOME SORTA' INFECTION RIDDLED ORGY IN A TANK.


well as you can see i really don't fill this in anymore, nothing much has happened really, gave a lovely talk about how a wheelbarrow is like 'my' ex girlfriend, made people laugh which kinda' made me feel good, the best thing is the fact i wrote my own part of the script so it had never been heard before. ;) fresh material obv.
Went round tams last night, was really good, but as we'd been walking up southdowns and all that, WE WERE all knackered, therefor i kept falling asleep, yeah, and now more have seen my nipple/s :) i don't care though BEING NAKED FEELS GOOD. sometimes?
Anyway, today went to town and suzies which was good!, done nothing much really this week woop woop.
Last time at school next week too...then summer! HOLIDAYS PEOPLE, and building bridges with my dad, metaphorically of course (; and my birthday (: Bit gutted though as i miss ani' with asher because i'l be in spain but i doubt we'll remember, have nothing to say woop.